Overcoming anorexia and bulimia
People face mental battles that some of us have no idea about. Sophia Ellis was one of those people – she was being consumed daily by her eating disorder and it was getting the better of her. Not only was she dealing with anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa and EDNOS, but she was struggling with depression. Understandably, all of this was getting on top of her.
Sophia, 23, somehow pulled herself out of this deep depression and after joining Xercise4Less Southend, fell in love with fitness and became interested in powerlifting.
Surviving a physical and mental health scare
When Sophia was at her lowest, she was throwing up more that 14 times a day and had regular scary and suicidal thoughts. She was terrified of food and sometimes even binged and purged until she passed out. She knew this period of her life wasn’t good but just couldn’t get herself out of this damaging mindset. Food made her anxious and her mind sometimes would tell her not to eat certain foods and that she didn’t deserve to eat them.
“I was consumed by my eating disorder. Isolated, lonely and felt worthless. I hated having the illness but couldn’t see a life without it. I was destroying myself and disgusted with who I was turning into. It made me feel dead inside, like I was in a constant destructive cycle that I couldn’t get out of.”
This was when Sophia knew that she needed to change something in her life. She went to her GP as she started passing out and experiencing heart problems and eventually ended up in hospital. Sophie is the first to admit that being aware of your eating disorder and illness is the first step. In her opinion, it’s all about being patient with yourself and taking one day at a time
Working on mental strength at Xercise4Less Southend
Once Sophia hit rock bottom, she wanted to work on becoming healthy again. Not just for herself but for her friends and family too. She was aware that her eating disorder and illness was having an impact on other people and wanted to work on it. She also knew it was getting a bit too much and wanted to do something about it. Sophia decided to join Xercise4Less Southend and starting taking the first positive steps on her personal fitness journey.
“My brother designed my first training programme just to help me get out of my room but I ended up getting into weight training and eventually found a love for powerlifting and the rest is history! I used the free weights gym zone Xercise4Less Southend for my training sessions to help me prep for powerlifting competitions.”
Sophia’s biggest piece of advice to Xercise4Less members who are feeling similar to her – stop comparing yourself to others. You’re on your own journey so accept that, accept yourself and accept your body. Confidence comes through self care and self appreciation of yourself.